The Calamity Girl- The Promotion
It was a little while later, Michael was looking somewhat down, and he mumbled, “Jake will be here soon.”
I said, “Michael I’m feeling pretty uncomfortable at the moment. I am sorry if I have hurt you. You are a sweet person it is just so sudden and out of character. Are you doing this because you are an insecure person? I do not think it is wise to jump into a relationship so quickly.
I agreed to be your girlfriend, but honestly, I am only looking for a lover who wants to be monogamous. I have too many things to deal with in my personal life to start worrying about a relationship. I don’t need the added stress.”
Michael looked at me and said, “I think I found your weakness. You have a fear of commitment. That is fine but do not expect me to wait around for you to change your mind. I refuse to be some girls love sick pup.”
I was shocked at the bitterness in his voice. He was a wounded man with a shattered ego and it was too much for me to deal with. I have never encountered a situation like this so I ignored it. I would not solve this one problem. I had enough crap to deal with in the past two and a half weeks — I did not want to add to my stress load.
I went and packed up my things. Jake arrived and we took a limo to the airport. Jake noticed how the two of us seemed to be avoiding each other. I could see Michael was suffering. Now I knew his weakness.
Michael had a hard time dealing with rejection. He was so used to getting any woman that he wanted. I probably threw him for a loop by refusing to marry him. All I could think of was what Lori would say to me when she found out.
I pretended to doze off during the flight I could sense Michael staring at me. I blocked my thoughts refusing to think about anything related to him. I did not want him intruding into my troubled soul. We eventually arrived at the Pearson Airport in Toronto, Canada around four and half hours later.
I gave Michael a hug and a kiss on the check and said, “You didn’t do anything wrong. You are a wonderful man. I just cannot swallow a person like you all at once. I have issues with trusting people right now. I also have some major career decisions to make and I am going to change many things in my personal life. I will miss you, but I hope we can stay friends at least. Bye Michael.”
I turned and walked away, holding back the lump in my throat. I did not let the tears fall until I arrived at my apt…